Raindrops keep fallin' on my head and soon my eyes will be turning red...falalala la la la la la la

It is raining today. It rained yesterday and will most likely rain tomorrow. I like this whole rainy experience. Though this weather tends to make me not want to work. There is something about a soft persistent rain that makes me want to make a cup of strong coffee, light a fire and just be. I love how rain gives you such a soft chill that you appreciate the joy of warmth so much more. Or how people slow down and huddle together - I love watching people right before the walk out the door. They all seem to move towards one another, strangers and friends alike, share a last moment of warmth before they all dash to their cars.

I especially like rain in Saskatchewan. I like that our drainage systems are less than perfect leaving lots of puddles for me to jump in on the way home...(Oh, come on like you don't like to hop into the odd puddle) and I like that no one carries umbrellas. It makes things a little more soggy and shows us the beauty of dripping imperfection.

So I am sitting here watching the rain - thinking about how tempting a nap would be. And at the same time stressing about things that don't need to be stressed about. See the rain helps me realize this - (don't ask me how).

I am preparing to leave. Leave a group of Youth who I love. A church that I love and a job that for some inconceivable reason I don't love. It is hard to end things like this, because it is not like anything I have walked away from before. This feels so unfinished.

But I will go - to Japan actually. I am spending 6 six weeks with MBMSI doing the ACTION program hoping that in the midst of it God will give me some direction. And maybe a good place to nap with a view of the rain. (Just a note if you want to help me with support - I'm ok with that...just lemme know....)

I am excited for ACTION though - so excited. Excited to be on a team. Excited to give and grow. Excited to learn and walk with my steps closer matching those of Jesus.

I'm in a nice melancholy mood today, if you find it confusing or annoying blame the rain. But in true honesty I am finding it hard to leave a place that was so hard to stay in. Such an irony.