It Unraveled and I was frazzled

I am writing this post recalling information from my last post. You see in my last entry I very smugly observed the male tendency to avoid anything female and emotional. Their fear of the frazzled woman entertained me and I chose to share it with the masses. (And by masses I mean the handful of random people of occasionally read this random blog).

Well, pride cometh before the fall...I hate it when other people are right - but I think God saw me write with so much pride He had to take me down a notch or too, out of love ofcourse - and He did!

Let me take you back to this past Friday... an eventful conclusion to an eventful work week. This week had been filled with the death of a friend, an injury to my neck, a massage from a sadistic massage therapist, the misplacement of my day planner(which truly is a tragedy)and other general strains and stresses of life. By Friday I was near the end of my rope - I remember thinking its ok I can keep it together just as long as nothing else goes wrong.

Well, Fridays in general are terribly busy for me because I am a Youth Pastor and Friday nights are youth group. I was on one of the final errands for youth group that night when I raced out of Canadian Tire to find the doors or my car locked and the keys still in the ignition...not only still in the ignition but the car still running. WHAT WAS I THINKING?

My response to this was completely level head and unemotional - I stomped my feet, kicked my car and welled up with tears. I then preceded to tearfully call CAA and as I sat waiting by the entry of Canadian Tire, my attempt of holding 'it' together unraveled and I was completely frazzled. And I cried.

Now, in my hour and a half of waiting and crying - I ironically observed the men who entered their Canadian Tire - half concerned and totally repulsed by emotional state. It wasn't as if they didn't want to help me, they were simply too petrified to come near me.

Through this humbling experience I came to three conclusions 1) chivalry is dead ladies, no matter how much we wish otherwise... 2) Though the frazzled woman it frightening to the average man, guys you have to understand it is a wonderful release. And 3) Pride sucks, in all honesty I was attempting to hold alot together on my own because I am a prideful person - very prideful. The truth of the matter is if I just would have leaned on God and allowed Him to take of 'it' I would have been in much better emotion shape.

So here is a bit an apology for simply far too smug and prideful